| men!! |
[24 Mar 2009|09:43pm] |
guy number 1.
i need him....i want him....i feel as tho i want him more and more each day. How an this possibly be. I think about him alot. He pops up in my dreams. He amazes me. But how could i....he probably doesnt even realise that im there. When i see him, i wanna hug him and never leave his arms. His hugs make me feel safe.
guy number 2
i think i like him, he's cute, he's funny, he makes me feel all butterfly stomach. I think about him. When he comes online, i wish he would contact me. He says he likes me but can i believe him. i dont even know him properly...but everytime i see him, i want to hold him...i want him to hold me....i wanna feel his hand inside mine.
arghhhhhh
i dont kow anymore
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[07 Feb 2009|03:40pm] |
My mum pissed me off the other night. We were having a fight about money (as usual) and see it all started coz i have $10 to one side from a previous night out nand i wanted to keep that as an extra bit towards going out next time. Anyway she goes, "we can use ur 10 to get some extra food" and im like "noooo i wanted to keep that" and it all started from there
then she goes "at least u have been out, i dont get a chance to."
so i go "well im not stopping u"
she goes "no but i have a little more pride in my appearance"
and im like "what and i dont?"
and she goes "sometimes no"
it pissed me off coz i always have pride in my apperance. So what if she is overweight and she is self conscience about that, im overweight too and im self conscience, doesnt stop me from having fun.
What am i meant to just not go out? not meet people? Arent i meant to have a life?
Fuck im 22 years old. Since i turned 18 ive been out maybe 15 - 20 times and at least 6-8 of those times were with her.
OK so since according to her i dont have pride in my appearance, i just wont eat, i will go overboard with exercising and shit. Hey maybe then i might get some "pride in my appearance"
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| New Years? |
[31 Dec 2008|11:02pm] |
Wow who would of thought its new years eve...only 1 hour until 2009!!
2008 was an odd year for me, had alot of ups and downs but had some great times.
I remember 1 of the resolutions i made, "make at least 10 new friends". Well i kept that one...yay...lol
2009 is gonna be a big resolution year for me.
1. Lose Weight
2. Make at least 10 new friends.
3. Find a nice guy i like
4. Go out more
5. Get another Job
6. Get in touch with at least 5 old friends.
cant think of any more at the moment
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[31 Dec 2008|12:16am] |
Im writing this thinking wtf?
Trent has gotten me so confused...angry...upset....i cant even get my head around it. He sends jess a msg saying he doesnt give a shit about me anymore, im not worth worrying about if i want to continue playing games, he still wonders what the hell im doing and hopes im ok but as for him and i, he took a shot and i dont want him so fuck it, my loss. Yet the buggar sends me msgs and one he sent me he goes " sorry for some stupid reason i cant figure out, i actually care about ya. when i dont hear from ya, im goin to worry that theres somthing wrong. its stupid i know and im a moron for caring. unfortunately i cant help it :P. it may seem like i think your world 'revolves around me n jess'. i know it doesnt babe. i know u have alot of other stuff on ur plate. i get too worried".
For someone who likes honesty so much, im not meant to know what he said to jess yet she told me coz she likes me too and thought i deserved to know what he was saying bout me...but he couldnt tell me himself, yet he tells me he cares and does worry bout me.....so which am i meant to believe?
January 1st 2009 is gonna be the first day of the start of me changing my life/lifestyle. Everything i do has to be for my future, for my future life, my future kids. Sounds stupid right? but yeah i just need a HUGE change...maybe if i change myself people will like me better. Maybe even that cute boy.....lol
I dunno.....i used to be happy with myself...now im not....so i will keep changing til i become happy with myself again.
I feel so lost tho....like nothing i do is right. I try and make things easier for people and it backfires, i try and be as honest as i can without dropping my guard and it backfires. I try and trust again and it backfires....and just as i start to feel better and lose some weight and whatever else, things do a 180 and turn out bad.
But oh well
BRING ON 2009!!! maybe it will be better.
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| so much to write about. |
[23 Nov 2008|02:40pm] |
where do i start?
I guess i could start by saying, my supervisor at work and I like each other. Found that out when he asked to come out with us (my friends and some other co workers) on the 1 saturday night. We were at Jd's and he seemed a little different towards me. I was hugging Jess and we were just having fun. Then i needed to sit down and there were no seats left so i sat on his lap for a second. Elsie kissed him on the cheek, and then i did on the other cheek. Anyway as we were leaving Jd's to head over to Ha'Penny's, Trent goes, i had to come out with you guys tonight so i could tell you hat i like you. i was like awwwww. Thats so cute. We were making out all night. He even walked me home...yes all the way from Frankston to Seaford.
Everything was fine until Tuesday when i started thinking bout things and realised i was really liking this guy and after last time of getting my heart broken im way to scared and guarded to let him in, i started backing off a bit. I told him i was scared and guarded and he's like well i wont hurt you we'll take things slow and im scared too. So anyway STILL guarded an scared but we're friends for now....see how things go AFTER that!!
Still think Joe is cute....i love Moneypenny...i will be so upset when penny comes back and Joe leaves :(. But yeah still hug him when i see him, still take photos of him. Love that man!!
Jd's guy is still cute, at least he knows i think he's cute now...lol....i saw him last weekend and hes like i remember u being here a few weeks ago..and im like yeah love playing pool...and hey the eye candy of a certain barman isnt too bad either..cant believe i said that...lol
ummm what else can i write about....oh yeah Mum and i started weighing ourselves once a week (every Sunday) to see how our weightloss is going....starting from the 2nd Nov....
2nd Nov - 76.8kg
9th Nov - 76.9kg
16th nov - 76.6kg
23rd Nov - 76.0kg
may not be a HUGE difference but at least im losing something.
hmmmm i finish work at Sagamore on the 19th December. Then i have no idea where im going from there. But at least this money i have been getting has done alright for mum and I, we have been getting some "luxury" items for ourselves...then during summer we will get our air con (hopefully)
im sure there is more to write about but i cant think of it right now...so bye bye.
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| 22nd shenanigans. |
[04 Oct 2008|08:36pm] |
ok lets see how much i remember of my 22nd celebrations last weekend.
took me all day to get ready, then Rob called me to say he was coming round to give me my b'day pressie. He showed up, gave me my pressie and card (which was insence, tea light candles, oil burner and some oil). He asked me if i wanted a lift so im like sure. We went and got some petrol and then headed back to his place. just hung around for half an hour and then headed to frankston station.
Paulee and Shane were already there, we sat around for 15 or so minutes but no one else showed up. we then went for walk...the long way to nandos....lol.....got to nandos and ordered, and then craig and his gf? i dunno, anyway they turned up and ordered, we went and sat at the big middle table so they could sit with us. After dinner craig and the girl went off and Rob, Shane, Paulee and I went over to JD's.
I got the balls for the pool table from the guy behind the bar. (gee that guy is cute...lol) We all played about 5 or 6 games of pool while singing to the songs they were playing.....i couldnt help but perve on the guy behind the bar. I noticed him looking too...:P...After the last game i went and gave the balls back to the guy...paid like $14 something for the games and he gave me back my ID.
We then headed to Ha'Penny's and went to the front bar and Paulee bought me and himself a jagerbomb...i was like scared coz i had never had a jagerbomb before...lol....ive had jager in jim beam just not a jagerbomb.....anywhoz couldnt scull it too much but sculled it enough....then we went and sat down. Paulee grabbed my phone and was gonna call all 3 matts in my phone but i told him it was just Matt M he needed to ring.....which he did and just as matty answered i hung up, paulee called me a pussy, i sent matt a msg saying it wasnt me and that i was sorry and all that...lol
Rob left early, left paulee shane and i to party it up. We bought some jack daniels and started drinking it up....Then Kat called me and i called hear her for the life of me so she sent me a msg asking where i was......all of us were within metres of each other...we caught up in the middle and hugged. All went outside. Kats friend Corrine was soooo funny.
we had to wait in line to get back in which at first annoyed me but then i noticed the cute 21 year old security guard which is now known as 645 since we dunno his actual name. I said to him that he should come talkto us later. We walked back in and headed up to the couches in the one area. Sat in there for a little while....Then Corrine and Kat and I went to the toilets and they were saying how paulee had said something bout Kat.
After a little while Kat & Corrine left and went to flannies? daveys? i cant remember :( i felt sad, but i couldnt leave my boys! We bought more drinks and 645 was inside standing near the back bar, i was talking to him and that was cool. Then i went back to where shane and paulee were (near the band) and was enjoying myself. 645 kept looking at me and i kept looking at him.
As the band was playing i was screaming so loud that the lead singer could hear me over them playing and stuff.....During their first break he came off stage and i hugged him. Hey he is cute too...lol........for anyone who wants to know (yes im gonna be a pimp here) his name is Joe Main. Look him up on IMDB or Myspace. I was talking to a guy who i went to school with Garen, never spoke to him back then but he doesnt remember me from back then and stuff...was cool.
Met some random chicks in the toilets.....they were funny. There was one tall blonde chick in there and im like "wow ur tall" and she's like "i know hey?"...we met in passing through-out the night, same as some other randoms.
During the bands second set i was still screaming loud but met all these random guys, funny thing is i would talk to them and steal their drinks, have a sip and give them back their drinks...but they let me...they didnt have to let go of their drinks but they did...lol....During a break between songs i looked at Joe and he looked at me and im like "its my birthday" and he goes "its ur birthday? really? whats ur name? and how old?" so im like "im stacey and im 22". so he gave me a shoutout...lol
When Joe came back off stage i hugged him some more (i think twice) and he told paulee that i have good vocalizers (didnt find this out til the next day)...lol....that guy is gorgeous! Paulee saw a mate of his Nigel aka Springer and he is a sleaze but a nice sleaze. He kept grabbing my ass. Put his arms around me.
Anyway at 2.30 when Ha'ennys was closing we all were leaving and i hugged 645 about 3 or 4 times...he didnt care...and i was talking to him nd going "aww my girls thought u were cute and that u know ur cute" and he's like "haha yup"....im like "awwww knew it" but he was cool with it all.
Paulee, Springer and i walked around to the taxi rank and the whole way im chanting 645 645 645...my god i was drunk. Finally got home and fell asleep around 5am...woke up around 10am. felt fine except a sick...but then around 2pm a headache started so i took some panadol and i was fine for the rest of the day. But MONDAY omg....woke up and i felt like crap, got to work and felt even worse....ended up having to leave early coz of it.
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| is it over before its begun? |
[20 Sep 2008|08:53pm] |
i needed to write down everything otherwise it was gonna play on my mind and i will never get past it. so without the long version im gonna try and shorten this to the best i can.
first off everyone knows i like matty...its obvious and he likes me too. We have that sorted out. I have this good mate paulee who i adore, we went to school together but never hung out but now we talk and things are great.
I went and saw matty on Thursday and everything was fine. i was txting paulee and matt saw this but wasnt jealous coz paulee and i are mates.
At about 8pm matty sent me a long txt msg saying "hey can u tel paulee 2 stop talkin bout me n sayin things bout me behind my back i dnt appreciate it at al if he has sumfin 2 say he can say it to my face now othas are thinking bd bout me even some of my friends it aint fair im a realy nice guy i dnt go loking for trouble stacey i think u r realy beautiful an wondaful but i dnt want ppl 2 think bad of me wat i realy aint an u know im not that kind of guy 2 lead u on i much enjoy ur company an u know iv tried 2 wana catch up outside of work but u havent replied hmmm just let him know that."
so i messaged paulee and asked him about it and he said he never said anything and that he would ask tash coz she knows matt a bit. Anyway Tash says that she didnt say anything except what paulee said which was how small the world is and that i like matty. so now its frustrated me so much i actually creid for 3 hours, thursday night.
then today greg (one of matty's co workers) sent me a msg
1. what rumours is your friend spreading about matt? he wont tell me
i replied with matty didnt tell me either. i asked my m8 & he hasnt said anythin. only thing that was said was how i like matt & how small the world is. its all become chinese whispers. maybe matt should ask tash.
2. matt said he's gonna snap him out
so i said man its all just gone way out of hand. paulee didnt say anything. i havent said anything. its either tash or 1 of her friends that knows matt more.
3.better find out, he's all fired up.
i replied with i dunno tash. or the friend. paulee only knows tash. as i said matt should ask tash or whoever told him that paulee is saying sh*t. i just cant handle it anymore. its f***ed with my head too much.
its done my head in because i know i never said a bad word about matt, paulee hasnt said anything...so its either tash or the friend of tash's who knows matt more. thing is, i dont know tash or the friend, paulee knows tash but not the friend. the only people that know that friend is tash and matt. So who else could of said something? i dunno any of matts friends and neither does paulee. Yet he is blaming paulee and me.
its made me feel so low that i feel like i did when my ex and i broke up. I cant deal with it. I dont want to end up like that again. But right now as much as i like matt, im so angry at him for threatening my friend, i hate violence. i hate how this is making me feel. Paulee is a good friend of mine and matt is the guy i like, now im stuck in the middle.
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[25 Aug 2008|03:15pm] |
ok so i saw matty today.
it started off as i was talking to sarah on my mobile...and she was telling me how her friend Matt likes me and told her that i pashed him on the weekend. hmm funny considering i wasnt even in the area.
Anyway i went in and bought stephen kings Cujo on dvd and matty comes up and pushes me out of the way (in a friendly way). and im like "oh fine just push me out the way next time" and he goes "i will". i bought cujo and then spoke to matty/jaime/brett/greg/mason. They were bagging me as per usual...lol.
Anyway Matt asked me how my weekend was and im like it was cool until my friend started trying to set me with up another guy. He goes awww thats fun....im like ahh no...hes like why? so im like because i dont like the guy. Matt said to Jaime while pointing to me, she already found someone else....and im laughing and goin oh yeah another Matt, and Jaime goes , whats with you and Matt's...im like dude seriously no!..lol
Matty after awhile said "see i kept my promise i didnt call while u were busy" and im like "aww". Feeling alittle bad still...so i said "i felt so bad the other day" and matty goes "u dont need to feel bad. i understand"
During the time i was trying to get the 2 rings off his hand but they wouldnt budge so i tried to take his chain from around his wrist but he wouldnt let me...i tried a few times but he wouldnt let me....he just kept grabbing my hand and holding it for a few seconds. im like "aww i want it" and he goes "someday" and i just went all giddy. I was just thinking does that mean i would get it if we were actually together for awhile? and im like awww thats so cute.
Bit later matty started bagging me about the other Matt that i was talking about earlier and starts asking all these questions like "are u gonna go out with him?" "do u like him" "is he as ugly as me?" so im like no im not gonna go out with him, no i dont like him and u aint ugly!!
Just before i left Matty goes, "msg me later about when you can hang out next" im like ok so he goes "or never want to" (in a joking way) and im like awww of course i want to.
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[22 Aug 2008|07:33pm] |
i had to cancel seeing matt today...was so upset...first i had the dentist...then physio because i had to go..that was fine but then my aunt called and asked if i could help her out even tho she said she wouldnt need me coz she knew i was gonna hang with matt....then my friend calls saying she was gonna be here at 5 to pick me up but its 7.30 and she still aint here. i felt so bad...i still feel bad, then he msged me asking if i wanted to catch up tonight and i felt even worse coz i had to say i couldnt coz im going to melton!! twice burnt in one day...he probably thinks i dont really like him or something. his texts back seemed a little disappointed!!
one msg he sent back was "ok kewl no worries i shuld stop bugging u il leav u be im sorry"
that made me feel so guilty. I mean yeah ive had alot of these plans sorted for age now but still....makes me feel so bad!!
so shattered...i like him so much!!
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[20 Aug 2008|01:11pm] |
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ok so i took a pic of matt the other day!! He doesnt like pics of himself and the original one i took didnt turn out, so i took a better one when he wasnt looking and here we are...lol...doesnt he look good in his work uniform :P
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[13 Aug 2008|10:01pm] |
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last night i msged matt with
me - dude did jaime say anything to you today about me? oh and hey dude lol him - yer bout wuld u go out with me an stuff haha its al gd and yer hey dude (dried up camels dick) hahahaha how hav u been wat did u think wen he said that haha me - haha i cant stop sayin dude. ive been good, wont c u til fri. now. damn work :p how have u been? i knew he would say sumthin coz i didnt. what did u think when he said it? him - lol it was funny haha ur a joy to have around u keep me entertained haha. its funny i know u dont lik me that way jaime just enjoys givin u shit aha me - are you sure i dont like u like that? :p im glad i keep u entertained, be a lil awkward if i didnt. lol him - well i think im sure haha like u said u just like hanging around and tht gds 2 me - haha and what would u say if one day i said to u that i did like u? im such a flirt arent i? :p him - haha ur just plying but yer ur such a flirt hahaha its gd 2 hav a friend outside of work. me - awww u dont think i could like u? u know 1 day we r gonna have to hang out outside of cashies? lol im always in there tho. dont want ya gettin sick of me him - haha yer im down 4 that haha 1 day wen i hav a day off haha thats wen i get 1 me - haha ahhh work. so good to get money & meet weird people like me, lol but a great social life sucks when u work. well i think it does him - haha yer bloody work wel hav a gd nite talk soon. u wuldnt like me im very ugly hehe no1 likes me haha nite nite me - haha nite darl and u aint ugly at all. you shouldnt put urself down
so he doesnt even realise i like him...or maybe he does and he was trying to get me to fully admit it.
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[11 Aug 2008|09:00pm] |
Ahhhh greg (smiley) he is so nice to me...he bags me about matt but he does care for me, he told me today that if everyones bagging gets too much for me i can tell him and he will shut them down. The guys were talking about kids and stuff and I got a little upset over the fact the doc said its gonna be hard for me to fall preggas. Greg saw it and told me just to tell him when things get too much......awwww. He showed me pics of his 2 kids....so adorable.
Today i went in and perved on Matt.....now found out he is 22..hehe....so now i know he is 22, lives in cranbourne, drives a holden. Everyone still says he likes me but i still cant see it. Though sometimes it could be obvious and i aint seeing it. We always flirt...i enjoy it of course..lol....At one stage i was watching how all the guys were just watching the women's swimming on the olympics, and i go "im surrounded in perves" matt said something, cant remember what and i go "matt admit you are perving on them" and he goes "are you jealous" and im like "oh of course" and h goes "you dont need to be jealous". I couldnt help but look at him through-out the time i was there.
Just before i was about to leave, I said to Jaime that i dont think matt likes me and he goes "nah he does he is just shy" and im like nah he doesnt like me. Jaime asks me if i like Matt and im like ummm.....yeah!! (while matt wasnt around). Then after a couple of minutes i asked Jaime not to tell Matt....dunno why, its kinda obvious that i do. So Jaime says, "just tell him", im like "nah", so Jaime goes "msg him tonight and tell him or i will tell him tmrw morning" im like nooo please dont, but secretly wanting him to so it saves me.
i havent messaged matt...so jaime will probably ask matt tmrw if i msged him and when matt says no, Jaime will tell him...But then at the same time Jaime might forget, so if he does i will be happy!!
next see them on wednesday so i guess i will find out then..lol
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| embarrassing!! |
[03 Aug 2008|10:58am] |
Friday I went to cashies to get outta the rain before the bus home...had 45 minutes to wait and thought I would go perve on tim and matt...and Smiley (greg). Spoke to them for ages...Tim was funny...Matt was funny too...he is so sweet, that guy. I was saying how no one there knows my name and if i tell anyone they will probably forget and he goes "aww no one could forget you"...He now knows my nane..lol.....I actually got to know a bit more about the guys at Cashies, so im happy...Have nicknames for a couple of them now....still need nicknames for rett, Tim, Matt, Rach, Stu, Nathan..etc......Smiley i came up with on the first day i ever went there..lol....he doesnt mind me calling him that :P......Anyway i said that i had to come in out of the rain and i had to perve and jaime found out that i was perving on Tim and Matt and Smiley goes..."what no perving on smiley?" im like awww of course im perving on Smiley...how could i not?..lol.....i was in such a happy hyper mood on Friday...swear it was too much sugar!! now im too embarrassed to go back on monday...jaime has a big mouth...he told Rach about it while i was standing there that i was perving on Tim and Matt...so whats the betting once i left he told tim and matt?...lol...Oh god they probably laughed at me once i left....probably think im some sort of weirdo...lol
awww yes Matt is funny and sweet....he cheers me up.
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| frustrated!! |
[18 Jul 2008|12:56pm] |
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arghhhhh i am so frustrated with my doctor.....i keep going to him to tell him that im frustrated with not having my period every month...im lucky to get it 2-3 times a year......he says its normal..that alot of girls dont have regular periods. now as far as i know all my girls have theirs every month. I went to another doc and he said the same thing and i said well i dont want to have to be on the pill anymore because i do want to get pregnant at some stage and its harder to fall pregnant if im on the pill yes? and he said that i'll find it hard anyway......i just dot know what else to do.
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[07 Jul 2008|01:29pm] |
my saturday night was huge!! went out for my best mates 22nd...went up to the city...to lounge!! was huge!
met some great new friends...some i actually have been speaking to since that night.
have pics up from the night..but couldnt take many coz it was dark.
i hooked up with a guy named stephen...that was fun!! He told me he had wanted to kiss me from the moment he saw me at melbourne central...it took us like 6 hours to finally hook up!! lol...i liked him from the start but didnt know how to show him. Only thing is that he is leaving in a couple of weeks :(
danced with all the guys..and enya and lizzie
bought new clothes for the night!! pants from supre, top from cotton on, jacket from target!! pretty cool...lol
I realised something saturday night...ever since i deleted brad's number out of my fone i have hooked up ...ive hooked up with 2 guys this year but before i deleted brad's number i didnt hook up with anyone.....coincidence??? lol
anywhoz back to saturday night....my new nickname is SEXY...lol..thats all Talei would call me.
Craig ended up breaking a window...by accident sortof purpose!!
OMG im surprised at what we all spoke about that night but whats even more weird is that i felt so comfortable with them all...first night i meet them i felt so comfortable....so not like me
still sore from the dancing and walking but hey no pain no gain!!
i dunno what else there is to say about the night....other than OMG OMG OMG best night!!
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OMG i am invited to a friends 21st for next month and she is having a pimps and hoes theme for it.....BUT i feel really self conscience about dressing like a hoe....not the fact that i have to dress like a hoe... but the whole me putting on weight and feeling like a whale and trying to dress skimpy is the hard part........PLUS i dont have a skirt to wear or fishnet tights or knee high boots...well i have knee high boots but they dont have the heel i want...they are stilletto and i want the fat heels......to top it off i dont have the money to buy any of these....so now all i have is me normal and not doing the theme.
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| I hate this..... |
[14 Mar 2008|06:04am] |
I dont know what to do....i have to re-enrol to complete my course at tafe .....but its gonna cost me $120 and thats $120 i cant afford to be paying out......Mum has given me a choice.....i can do it and we will find the money by the 20th ...(i have at least $50 for it now) or I give it away for now......i dont know what to do...i want to do the course but i dont want to be useing money that we cannot really afford :(
Im actually crying because i dont know what to do. I hate this so much...im torn.......do i do a course that could get me a better job and use money that we can use but barely afford to...or do i give it away and try again another year when we can afford the money.
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| update |
[19 Feb 2008|10:17pm] |
well i got my wisdom teeth out on valentines day.....the anaesthetic wore off after about an hour and a half!! Took about 20 paracetamol in just over 24 hours!! The pain was sooooo bad but started easing yesterday so im glad!! after i started taking these anti inflams my mouth started healing a bit...the only thing that annoys me is the pain that i do feel and the stupid stitches!! Slept most of the first couple of days away i was in that much pain....plus the shock from it made me soooo tired!! Could barely eat......which brings me to my next topic
I have lost 2 and a half kgs since getting my wisdom teeth out coz i could barely eat.....i hope i can keep it off....i doubt i can tho :(....I will try my best tho.
I have to go to the docs today to get a medical certificate for centrelink and stuff which i REALLY hate!!
My best friend Sarah's parents are having major problems at the moment :(....my second family!!! i hate it.....i hope they dont get a divorce or anything....they've been together for soooooo long...like 22 years or something :(.....it just wont feel right.
i waana change my hair but i dont know what i want.....in a way i know what i want but i need the money and need to try and explain what i want....but then i want to grow my hair...so its long again...but mum says i look better with shorter hair.
i wanna still get my nosed peirced...and get a couple of tattoos.....i want a tattoo with 3 small flags.....1 aussie, 1 english and 1 aboriginal...as they are my heritage....i want Rosi written on my wrist as it is my nickname!!
It has taken me over an hour to write this entry...and really i havent finished :( its gonna take me all day coz i have to go out soon!!
ok its 1.30pm just got home. went to the docs......got my medical certificate and a couple of prescriptions for stuff mum and i need...had my 3rd and last cervical cancer immunisation...yay!! from there walked over to the bus stop
got the bus to frankston...headed to the shopping centre and just as we hit the path near the carpark on the ground floor food court mum slipped over and hurt her knee pretty bad....she can barely walk on it as it is...she has had problems with the knee for at least 2 years and now goes and stuffs it even more :(...she has to get Xrays done tmrw.....anyway she rang the centre management and they sent a security guard down to get her details and stuff.
After that we went to Cashies and bought 11 DVDs.......then headed over to the train station and caught the V/line to Leawarra to pick up a PS1 and a 2 step ladder from people on freecycle....we got a taxi home from there
stayed home for about an hour then rang for a taxi and went back down to the docs so mum could show the doc and so she could get the thing to say she needs xrays....then we went to the shop and grabbed a couple of things and then came home....and here we are...lol
Today I lost another 1 and a half kilos...so im down to 71....but our scales suck and keep fluctuating between 70 and 71
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| Fucking Bitch!! |
[07 Feb 2008|10:02pm] |
Oh god my grandmother pisses me off.
My mum rang my uncle (her bro) last night and they had a decent converstion while i was out. According to my Uncle (if we can believe him), last tim he spoke to my nan (his mum), she backstabbed us to the max.
here are the things said
1. Both mum and i are chleptomaniacs (stealers)
reason for this is because she accused me of stealing $100 worth of chocolate bars and eating them in 1 day......Now everyone knows if you eat too much chocolate you are gonna to be sick and vomit....I never did that. One day when we were cleaning up my grandparents place for Xmas mum was cleaning the fridge and guess what was in the bottom draw of the fridge...yes chocolate bars...my nan closed the draw as soon as possible but mum saw them.
I dont know why she said my mum is one :S
2. that everytime her and mum went near each other they would get into a fight
haha thats the funniest thing ive heard. yes they got into a few arguments....never real fights. They had an argument one boxing day i was feeling faint and almost passed out. and because mum wanted to get me home asap so i could recover back in a bed my nan and aunt were saying i had to stay on the bench at the karingal hub. Now all i needed was a soft drink and a lay down but they wouldnt allow me. Eventually we ended up back at my grandparents and they had it out.
Another time, mum and her were talking in a normal voice about mobile phones...mum was saying they should get one....anyway after awhile my nan just shouted at the top of her lungs....we were shocked coz it was just a conversation..no argument.
the last time which caused her to say we werent allowed to go up there for xmas was, my nan accussed me of being lazy and not looking for work. My mum stuck up for me saying that i have the proof that i look for work as i print up all my applications and all that but my nan got pissed off.
There was other stuff but i cant think what else there was......That bitch will get her come-up-ance and I SO hope im the one to give it to her!! I just want to have the biggest go at her.
I swear if i have a child before she dies...i WILL not let her have anything to do with her/him. If she can say that about her daughter and only grand-daughter...imagine what she would be like with my girl/boy!
I was thinking about going to visit her soon....she can forget about that. I wont even go to her funeral...whenever that day will come!!
FUCK HER....How dare she....IM FUCKING OVER IT!!
STUPID TOXIC MOTHER/GRANDMOTHER!!
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| feb. update |
[06 Feb 2008|11:15pm] |
ok so its the start of feb. Here is an update of my life at the moment.
1. I have to get my wisdom teeth out on valentines day....yes in 8 days!!...not like i have anyone to share the day with...lol
2. my friend David, whom ive known for 8ish years, has a new gf and he thinks it fazes me. I dont even know how. I havent given him any reason to think i like him. he's a friend...thats it. his words were "about that message about me having a gf and you missing out, i hope that doesnt faze you?" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....thats all i got to say. Anyone who knows me knows who i like
3. Oh speaking about who i like......im too confused...im giving up and just gonna wait and see what happens...lol
4. I caught up with my friend Darren today....for about 20 minutes or so but still really good!! I miss him alot coz we dont hang out as much as we used to. But we still get along, still laugh, still have fun...its cool!
5. Im slowly losing weight....tho i do yo yo abit still. Funny thing is, even tho i havent really lost any substantial weight or anything, i started feeling more confident recently......and i dont know if thats a good thing or not :S
6. There is SOOOOO much i want to buy right now....im addicted!! I want to buy jewellery, clothes, make up, hair accessories and more
7. Why does plucking hurt so much....when i do my eyebrows it makes my eyes water
8. this year i dont seem to be tanning as well as i did last year and the year before :(
9. I will be 22 this year...OMG.....Im growing up....why cant i be like peter pan and never grow up :P :P :P
10. have u seen that i have updated less.....i think im doing well :P
ok i think thats it for now!!!
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